So, I was at Connect Group (one of my church's small group meetings) the other night and the topic was about whether or not we were doing the thing(s) we were called to do ... if we were in step with what the Designer had in mind when He created us.
Tetyana read and excerpt from The Dream Giver (great book, if you can find it ... I'm constantly being told it's out of print). Then we talked a bit about what brings us fulfilment. As I sat there and thought about the things that make me feel fulfilled in my walk with God, it struck me that those things were not what I was currently doing.
Now, this is not to say that I'm done here and am boarding the next plane to somewhere else in pursuit of what makes me happy. But, it is making me reevaluate starting another home and being tied to this ministry long-term. I am passionate about justice for children ... but I'm not sure that what I'm doing now (house mom, working with Child Welfare to care for my allotted 12) is what I was designed to do. Like so many things, I find I'm good at it, but it doesn't make me feel fulfilled. If anything, it kinda frustrates me.
So, what was on my list? Travel and experiencing other cultures. Photography - especially from places I've travelled. Hospitality ... the idea to go back and get my Masters and manage something in a foreign country once again rears its head. And, investing in relationship with other people who have a similar focus and passion for God.
Nothing about children. Nothing about Africa. Yet, there is no doubt in my mind that this is where I'm supposed to be. What am I supposed to do about that?
3 comments:
keep those things in your heart & allow your heart to silently pray through them awaiting an answer from the Lord... in the meantime, focus on the work that He has placed in front of you.
bless you, my friend.
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i wish that we could be together walking this road...i have been thinking a lot about this stuff, too!!! i miss you!
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