Love

Today in church Pastor Iain talked about his relationship with the Lord and how excited he was about it. He likened it to the ongoing romance he has with his wife of 16 years. I found myself wondering what happened to that part of my relationship with God.

I remember when I thought of Him as my Lover, rather than just my Daddy, Provider and Protection. I remember when my thoughts and prayers were about more than understanding these people He’s called me to for a season and how I was to truly live in the midst of foreignness. I remember jumping in my car and going off to spend time with Him on mountaintops; sitting in a park, chatting with Him about things; feeling His presence all around me in a worship service or on the wind.

What happened to those times?

Moreso than it being an issue of safety and inability to get around to places that bring about these experiences, I’ve become consumed with issues … issues of life in SA, issues of inner city ministry, issues of the future and where I’m headed, issues of the turmoil in my own heart and mind.

I want be in that place, once again, where I sense His presence and His affection for me. It looks like it’s time to rekindle the fire that was my love-relationship with Jesus.