Memphis and stuff

So, I just went to Memphis for a college reunion and had an absolute blast. It's so crazy to see everyone after nearly ten years. Wow.

While there I ran into a couple folks that I hadn't expected seeing. Izzy was one ... and he's a daddy! I still can't get over it. There was no preparation for that and I'm still reeling. His family was so cute, though.

It was also really good to get together with old friends and realize that I'm not as different or alone in my struggles as I thought. We're all desiring more from God, wanting to live this adventure with Him. Wanting to know that He's alive and well in our lives, and struggling to feel His presence at times.

I've been told that I need to read Captivating by so many people now that I decided to just buy it today. I've read the first chapter and all I can say is wow. It seems that the Eldredges have glimpsed into my heart and come away with the core of my struggle. I'm all in.

Hmmm ... I've also figured out that I'm going to cancel all my trips and head to South Africa in January. I haven't told my folks that yet. In seeking God on this void that I've felt within the last few weeks, He likened it to someone overstaying in a foreign country and now my peace has gone. Now that I've stopped making my own plans and thinking about what I could stuff in there before I had to commit my life to Africa, peace has returned. So, it looks like I need to work on visa and plane ticket issues.

Here we go!